[jin/kame] I don't miss you anymore
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morendoTitle: I don't miss you anymore
Pairing: Jin/Kame
Rating: G
Words: 449
Summary: Kame's saying it this time.
At first, Kame is afraid to say it because he was afraid Jin wouldn’t come back if he did.
But after one too many awkward silences on the phone where there was crackling static instead of conversation, Jin finally bit the bait Kame had been dangling with his repetitive excuses. “No, I’m busy, and I really have to go to sleep now, Jin. I have work tomorrow,” etcetera.
Jin’s drunk when it happens; he’s not doing as well as KT-TUN at keeping it together. Being alone exposes all your inner demons, Jin had admitted as much, and Kame gathered that you find yourself only to lose yourself, and you lose yourself only to find yourself again.
Kame wonders if he’ll remember, and with a wry smile that he knows the other can’t see, he hopes Jin won’t. At the very least, he’d never bring it up and it would be like pretending not to remember. Too much pride.
Kame watches his own expression carefully in the mirror as he tells Jin, ”No, I don’t miss you anymore.”
A pause follows, but Kame doesn't find it uncomfortable; instead, his skin prickles with anticipation. There is something relaxed in the lines of his face, and the faint buzz of tension fades away as he fidgets, the cotton bed sheet crinkling crisply between his fingers. He does it not just because it’s necessary, but also because he means it. Besides, it isn’t entirely true to say Kame doesn’t think of Jin sometimes, but thinking about him from a friend’s point of view doesn’t mean he misses him. People have been treating him delicately, but they’ve begun to realize it wasn’t necessary despite the huge fuss when everyone had found out. He doesn’t like missing things and having such things as regrets: they both had a good time and that was that; all good things had to come to an end. Kame realized it one night, talking to Junno, an innocent and unrelated topic on what they wanted for the future.
“Kame, I - wasn’t, that wasn’t what I meant,” Jin slurs.
“So stop calling me sounding like you hate what you are doing. Come back if you miss me, Yamapi, KAT-TUN, whatever so fucking much.”
There is a sobering silence on Jin’s end that Kame doesn’t hear because he has already hung up.
Jin comes back, after much effort and lot less pride. At first, he’s a bit of a mess, footing uncertain, fresh. Maybe he had gone to America for some time to heal, so their past would no longer hold each of them back.
Jin’s smile is surprised when Kame links elbows with him on stage, Kame’s smile is sincere.
Pairing: Jin/Kame
Rating: G
Words: 449
Summary: Kame's saying it this time.
At first, Kame is afraid to say it because he was afraid Jin wouldn’t come back if he did.
But after one too many awkward silences on the phone where there was crackling static instead of conversation, Jin finally bit the bait Kame had been dangling with his repetitive excuses. “No, I’m busy, and I really have to go to sleep now, Jin. I have work tomorrow,” etcetera.
Jin’s drunk when it happens; he’s not doing as well as KT-TUN at keeping it together. Being alone exposes all your inner demons, Jin had admitted as much, and Kame gathered that you find yourself only to lose yourself, and you lose yourself only to find yourself again.
Kame wonders if he’ll remember, and with a wry smile that he knows the other can’t see, he hopes Jin won’t. At the very least, he’d never bring it up and it would be like pretending not to remember. Too much pride.
Kame watches his own expression carefully in the mirror as he tells Jin, ”No, I don’t miss you anymore.”
A pause follows, but Kame doesn't find it uncomfortable; instead, his skin prickles with anticipation. There is something relaxed in the lines of his face, and the faint buzz of tension fades away as he fidgets, the cotton bed sheet crinkling crisply between his fingers. He does it not just because it’s necessary, but also because he means it. Besides, it isn’t entirely true to say Kame doesn’t think of Jin sometimes, but thinking about him from a friend’s point of view doesn’t mean he misses him. People have been treating him delicately, but they’ve begun to realize it wasn’t necessary despite the huge fuss when everyone had found out. He doesn’t like missing things and having such things as regrets: they both had a good time and that was that; all good things had to come to an end. Kame realized it one night, talking to Junno, an innocent and unrelated topic on what they wanted for the future.
“Kame, I - wasn’t, that wasn’t what I meant,” Jin slurs.
“So stop calling me sounding like you hate what you are doing. Come back if you miss me, Yamapi, KAT-TUN, whatever so fucking much.”
There is a sobering silence on Jin’s end that Kame doesn’t hear because he has already hung up.
Jin comes back, after much effort and lot less pride. At first, he’s a bit of a mess, footing uncertain, fresh. Maybe he had gone to America for some time to heal, so their past would no longer hold each of them back.
Jin’s smile is surprised when Kame links elbows with him on stage, Kame’s smile is sincere.
